Tag Archives: abuse survivor

The dreaded ‘R’ word

🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where my […]

Rejected and discarded

1975 Of course, there was one other person to speak to about my possible training at Bretton Hall, and he wasn’t happy at all. This was going to ‘change’ me. He became nastier as I made my way though the process of application. His control and demands became greater. Coercion was his number one tactic […]

Intensity

2020 The ability to throw myself into things until I reach breaking point in order to escape situations I am struggling with, has stayed with me. It is my stress buster. Unfortunately, more recently, it has also become a bit of a body buster. When I turned 60, my daughter suggested I rejoin the local […]

A means of escape…

🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where my […]

Being honest with yourself is the start…

  It has been a challenging week for me, which is why my post is later than usual. I have struggled and I feel that I need to reiterate that have not written and shared my story (Secrets behind the collar) for any shock value, neither have I shared it to evoke any particular reaction. […]

Piecing the jigsaw and the prospect of a challenging visit

I find that I am forever finding and placing new pieces in the metaphorical jigsaw of my life, and in particular in the traumas I experienced. This week, as I reflected upon conducting the funeral of one of my parents’ oldest friends last Friday, more pieces fell into place. As I listened to her son […]

A horrible legacy

🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where my […]

Pandora’s Chest

🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where my […]

A letter to a man I wish I’d never met

  🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where […]

The processing continues…

My ‘Secrets’ blog is a serialisation of my story. You may want to first go back to read previous weeks’ accounts 🖤 I clearly recall that large man, the light brown hair and the colour blue. I know he came out from the transport cafe next to our house, and that he seemed friendly when […]