Tag Archives: ptsd

The dreaded ‘R’ word

🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where my […]

Rejected and discarded

1975 Of course, there was one other person to speak to about my possible training at Bretton Hall, and he wasn’t happy at all. This was going to ‘change’ me. He became nastier as I made my way though the process of application. His control and demands became greater. Coercion was his number one tactic […]

A means of escape…

🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where my […]

A letter to a man I wish I’d never met

  🖤🖤 ‘Secrets behind the collar’ is my story. It is the account of the traumatic events not only of 2020, but also of the abuse suffered during my childhood and teenage years.  If you are reading my ‘Secrets’ blog for the first time, you may wish to go back and begin reading from where […]

The processing continues…

My ‘Secrets’ blog is a serialisation of my story. You may want to first go back to read previous weeks’ accounts 🖤 I clearly recall that large man, the light brown hair and the colour blue. I know he came out from the transport cafe next to our house, and that he seemed friendly when […]

Traumatic memories and Night Terrors

My ‘Secrets’ blog is a serialisation of my story. You may want to first go back to read previous weeks’ accounts 🖤 May 2020 Two months into lockdown. We are all fit and well again. We’ve turned the dining room into a makeshift gym. Dad now has a care package in place, which includes three […]

PTSD and EMDR

My ‘Secrets’ blog is a serialisation of my story. You may want to first go back to read previous weeks’ accounts 🖤 2020 I’m back with my counsellor. In the past two weeks’ sessions I have tried to share with her the extent of what happened to me as a child and as a young […]

The Knock in the Night

***If you are visiting this page for the first time, please do look at the previous posts in this section. This is my story and it will all make more sense if you begin to read where I began to write*** 1974 I recall a time when I idolised my dad, this was before I […]

Doing the right thing…

The past few days have definitely been challenging, and as I begin to write, I know there are more days like this ahead. Life is sometimes like that; it throws things at us we are not prepared for and we have to rise to the challenge, or sink, it’s as simple as that. The challenge […]

Two lovely people…

***If you are visiting this page for the first time, please do look at the previous posts in this section. This is my story and it will all make more sense if you begin to read where I began to write*** The advice to share my past trauma with my youngest brother and my sister […]